Oh my, where to begin... First off - know that I am horrible at keeping up a blog. I've tried before and have failed, and it seems that this blog is getting just as neglected as my past ones. The only time I have to truly work on a blog is at work, and I've been so busy here lately that I haven't had a chance to post (obviously - hence my 3.5 month absence). I would update at home, but I feel that I get such little home time - that whenever I'm there I want to spend time with your the hubby. But regardless, lot's to update...
First off - YOU'RE A GIRL! We were very surprised and excited to hear this news. We both truly thought you were a boy for some reason, but are overjoyed to hear that you tricked us and are actually a girl! We threw a gender reveal party with a large group of family and friends (your great-grandparents skyped in, and aunt/great-cousin Laura facetimed in). We cut into the cake, and when pulling the knife out the first time - nothing. Did the 2nd cut, pulled the knife out - I saw a little bit of pink and amazed! Knowing your gender has truly made the experience all the more real.
I started to feel you move the week before valentines day, and I felt your first KICK on valentines day. I was sitting at my desk at work and felt this jab that made me jump. I had to stop and think "what the heck was that?!?!". But you haven't stopped moving since - and you're VERY active now (24 weeks - 25 as of tomorrow).
It was frustrating for a while because I could feel you moving up a storm for the longest time, and I'd grab your daddy's hand and put it where you were kicking. He'd either not feel your movements, or you would stop all together. It was so aggravating - I wanted him to experience this too! But one night we were laying in bed, and he put his hand on my stomach, and WHAM you hit him. He looked up at me with the biggest eyes and mouth agape and asked "was that her?!?!". I assured him that was you, and now he thinks he's an expert because he stated "that felt more like a punch rather than a kick..." such a wise guy... He only felt you once that night, but about a week or two later you kicked him good like 10 times in a row, and he just couldn't believe it. He woke up one morning and put his hand on my belly very briefly just saying "good morning baby", and you kicked him almost instantly as if you were responding.
Your grandma and I have been working on the details for a baby shower, while your daddy and I have been working on a registry - picking out all your "first" things. Very exciting and intimidating.
We've started taking a birthing class called "the bradley method" - which is focused on all natural childbirth without any medications or drugs. We've been enjoying it so far, mostly to be around other pregnant couples going through the same things we are.
I'm trying to coordinate a job where I can work from home full time and be with you, so that you don't have to go to daycare. But it's proving hard. I thought my current company would be gung-ho, after I created a formal proposal on the idea - showing such "ambition and thought", but they somewhat have brushed it off stating that 'now is not a good time'. So I'm giving them another few weeks, and then I'll be looking for other options - even just a medical billing or data entry position. Just something that will keep me at a similar financial situation as to where I am now, but allow me to be at home with you.
I'm going to close for now, as I must finish up a few things before leaving work for the day. But we're very excited to meet you, to see you, to get to know you - you have no idea...
Love,
Mom
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
Thursday, January 24, 2013
And I saw your face...
I finally saw your face for the first time yesterday. It was amazing. You finally look like a baby and not a peanut!! And I saw your legs, and your arms... sleeping on your side, definitely like mommy & daddy.
And your heart was beating strong, I've seen it in the past but yesterday I got to hear your heart beat. I was very close to losing it and crying but your daddy couldn't seem to hear it so I was trying to refrain so he too could enjoy in the sound.
You're getting bigger and bigger... and I can definitely feel that you're in there. I'm not sure if what I feel are movements, or just gas / digestion. But soon enough, I imagine I'll feel you move your arms and move your legs.
And your heart was beating strong, I've seen it in the past but yesterday I got to hear your heart beat. I was very close to losing it and crying but your daddy couldn't seem to hear it so I was trying to refrain so he too could enjoy in the sound.
You're getting bigger and bigger... and I can definitely feel that you're in there. I'm not sure if what I feel are movements, or just gas / digestion. But soon enough, I imagine I'll feel you move your arms and move your legs.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
1st Pregnancy Annoyance
I've read multiple articles and message boards about the annoying and sometimes rude things people say to you while you're pregnant. How to respond, how to handle these messages, and what to anticipate that they'll say in the first place. Well, being only 13 weeks pregnant, I haven't had too much of the opportunity to discuss said pregnancy with people, and therefore haven't given them the chance to say something that rubs me the wrong way.
Until today.
Back track - we went last night to a viewing for a very close friend of the family who had passed away. It was one of the first times we (hubby & I) openly discussed the pregnancy with those around us. Even complete strangers. Today was the funeral, and at the wake thereafter, I was told twice:
"That baby is going to be so spoiled."
Why does this bother me so? I mean, it probably is true. This being our first child, and we want to be able to give him/her everything. This will also be the first grandchild for all the grandparents, and in some instances the first great grand child. All the cards line up to say that yes, this child may be spoiled. But it irks me to hear someone say it to me. Two different people at that.
Am I just being hormonal? Perhaps.
Is it slightly inappropriate to presume and say to a pregnant woman? Perhaps.
Regardless, yes - you probably will be spoiled baby Milam. But I just don't want people to say so.
Until today.
Back track - we went last night to a viewing for a very close friend of the family who had passed away. It was one of the first times we (hubby & I) openly discussed the pregnancy with those around us. Even complete strangers. Today was the funeral, and at the wake thereafter, I was told twice:
"That baby is going to be so spoiled."
Why does this bother me so? I mean, it probably is true. This being our first child, and we want to be able to give him/her everything. This will also be the first grandchild for all the grandparents, and in some instances the first great grand child. All the cards line up to say that yes, this child may be spoiled. But it irks me to hear someone say it to me. Two different people at that.
Am I just being hormonal? Perhaps.
Is it slightly inappropriate to presume and say to a pregnant woman? Perhaps.
Regardless, yes - you probably will be spoiled baby Milam. But I just don't want people to say so.
Friday, January 4, 2013
Things to eat once the baby is born
Coconut shrimp
Sushi
Steamed shrimp
Steamed crabs...
Peanut butter & apricot jelly sandwich
Peanut M&M's
Instead of looking at this and saying "These are things I want but can't eat!", I'm trying to take the more optimistic road by saying "I look forward to eating these in July / August".
We've narrowed it down to two crib / dresser sets, in which our family has graciously offered to pay for. This makes things tremendously easier on us - especially with our champagne tastes. Our original plan was that we would buy the crib, dresser, and glider with a portion of our tax refund. Well, with two of those three taken care of, the glider was the only thing left. I've had a difficult time finding a glider on the babies 'r us website that didn't have several negative reviews claiming that "I'm really short and I can't rest my head on this!!! meh!!", so I expanded my search elsewhere. I asked our neighbors who had a baby boy in May where their glider was from (I'd seen it before and knew it was the exact style and color I wanted), and they said Burlington Coat Factory. Burlington Coat Factory of all places!!! I've never shopped at this store in my life. Long story short - after visiting one store then calling all over the state of Maryland, we finally found 1 store with 1 of this specific glider. My husband went to pick it up, and while it was already a good price comparatively at $350 (included ottoman), the cashier gave him a 20% off coupon! Yay us! :) And with some tickets we've sold recently and a football pool my husband partakes in, our profits more than paid for the chair.
At this point, we're 12 weeks and 3 days and I'm starting to feel better for the most part in regards to nausea and food aversions. I do still tire easily and it's difficult to get out of bed in the morning. My body tends to ache which is inconvenient. My belly is starting to get a little bigger. Today my jeans are unbuttoned and held together with a hair tie. They could be buttoned and be fine - but I have been more wary of tight pants recently.
Duncan went ahead and did the honors of providing the first scratch(es) on your brand new, gorgeous, expensive floors. Blame him.
Sushi
Steamed shrimp
Steamed crabs...
Peanut butter & apricot jelly sandwich
Peanut M&M's
Instead of looking at this and saying "These are things I want but can't eat!", I'm trying to take the more optimistic road by saying "I look forward to eating these in July / August".
We've narrowed it down to two crib / dresser sets, in which our family has graciously offered to pay for. This makes things tremendously easier on us - especially with our champagne tastes. Our original plan was that we would buy the crib, dresser, and glider with a portion of our tax refund. Well, with two of those three taken care of, the glider was the only thing left. I've had a difficult time finding a glider on the babies 'r us website that didn't have several negative reviews claiming that "I'm really short and I can't rest my head on this!!! meh!!", so I expanded my search elsewhere. I asked our neighbors who had a baby boy in May where their glider was from (I'd seen it before and knew it was the exact style and color I wanted), and they said Burlington Coat Factory. Burlington Coat Factory of all places!!! I've never shopped at this store in my life. Long story short - after visiting one store then calling all over the state of Maryland, we finally found 1 store with 1 of this specific glider. My husband went to pick it up, and while it was already a good price comparatively at $350 (included ottoman), the cashier gave him a 20% off coupon! Yay us! :) And with some tickets we've sold recently and a football pool my husband partakes in, our profits more than paid for the chair.
At this point, we're 12 weeks and 3 days and I'm starting to feel better for the most part in regards to nausea and food aversions. I do still tire easily and it's difficult to get out of bed in the morning. My body tends to ache which is inconvenient. My belly is starting to get a little bigger. Today my jeans are unbuttoned and held together with a hair tie. They could be buttoned and be fine - but I have been more wary of tight pants recently.
Duncan went ahead and did the honors of providing the first scratch(es) on your brand new, gorgeous, expensive floors. Blame him.
Friday, December 21, 2012
10 weeks and some change
I can't believe I've neglected this blog for so long... Well, I guess it doesn't surprise me too much. This is what happened to my last blog. All of 5 posts then POOF! I vanished. I've been having a hard time finding time to write a post, as the most convenient time for me is while I'm at work... But I've just been too busy recently.
I also haven't known what to write. Yes I still don't feel well. I'm exhausted all the time, and my stomach is temperamental. My body aches, meanwhile I feel gross and enormous.
Next week is Christmas, and the plan is to tell our entire family then. So far- just our parents know, and a few select friends. Just like my outlook on pregnancy as a whole, I'm anxious, scared, nervous, unsure as to what to expect the response to be.
Cravings haven't been overwhelming... usually I'll just hear someone mention a food item of some sort and that'll spark my interest. Cravings have been beef, macaroni & cheese, daiquiris (virgin of course), burgers... I've been REALLY wanting sushi, or crab mac n' cheese, or anything with peanut butter, but alas - I have given all these things up in hopes of a healthy child.
Dear Baby,
The floors were done in your room this past week. You now have officially the nicest room in the house. We laid a rug down in the center of the room to protect the wood floors, and it has quickly become Duncan's new favorite spot. You'll love Dunc - he's so funny. And I know he'll love you.
<3 Mom
I also haven't known what to write. Yes I still don't feel well. I'm exhausted all the time, and my stomach is temperamental. My body aches, meanwhile I feel gross and enormous.
Next week is Christmas, and the plan is to tell our entire family then. So far- just our parents know, and a few select friends. Just like my outlook on pregnancy as a whole, I'm anxious, scared, nervous, unsure as to what to expect the response to be.
Cravings haven't been overwhelming... usually I'll just hear someone mention a food item of some sort and that'll spark my interest. Cravings have been beef, macaroni & cheese, daiquiris (virgin of course), burgers... I've been REALLY wanting sushi, or crab mac n' cheese, or anything with peanut butter, but alas - I have given all these things up in hopes of a healthy child.
Dear Baby,
The floors were done in your room this past week. You now have officially the nicest room in the house. We laid a rug down in the center of the room to protect the wood floors, and it has quickly become Duncan's new favorite spot. You'll love Dunc - he's so funny. And I know he'll love you.
<3 Mom
Monday, November 26, 2012
Feeling Terrible
Shouldn't I be elated?
Shouldn't I be beaming and glowing with joy that I radiate happiness and feel fantastic?
Shouldn't I still feel like normal at this point?
To put it bluntly, I feel like crap! I'm constantly hot, super smell sensitive. Numerous food aversions, even talking / thinking about food makes me have a gag reflex. I'm tired and my muscles feel like they've gone to mush. My skin is oily and breaking out horribly. And my stomach seems constantly nauseous. Popsicles seem to be the only thing I can always eat safely.
This phase of life is supposed to be a glorious and beautiful thing. And don't get me wrong - the being growing inside of me and baby to come is amazing and I am forever grateful for him / her. But this pregnancy thing, kinda sucks. I don't feel beautiful, I don't feel like this empowered woman with "look what I am creating!!". I feel sick! And fluffy! And flat out ugly!
oye....
It will get better... it will get better... it will get better... It has to get better.
Shouldn't I be beaming and glowing with joy that I radiate happiness and feel fantastic?
Shouldn't I still feel like normal at this point?
To put it bluntly, I feel like crap! I'm constantly hot, super smell sensitive. Numerous food aversions, even talking / thinking about food makes me have a gag reflex. I'm tired and my muscles feel like they've gone to mush. My skin is oily and breaking out horribly. And my stomach seems constantly nauseous. Popsicles seem to be the only thing I can always eat safely.
This phase of life is supposed to be a glorious and beautiful thing. And don't get me wrong - the being growing inside of me and baby to come is amazing and I am forever grateful for him / her. But this pregnancy thing, kinda sucks. I don't feel beautiful, I don't feel like this empowered woman with "look what I am creating!!". I feel sick! And fluffy! And flat out ugly!
oye....
It will get better... it will get better... it will get better... It has to get better.
Monday, November 19, 2012
Morning Sickness
Yesterday I experienced my first occurrence of the infamous morning sickness. We were on our way to the park with our dog, our typical Saturday / Sunday morning routine, and I was eating an apple for breakfast on the drive. I thought it wouldn't be wise to wait to eat until 10 am like we normally do on weekends, so I thought I was doing good...
Three bites into the apple my stomach started to get a bit queasy. I stopped eating. Breathed deeply. Tried to continue. My husband (who thankfully was driving) asked if I was okay, and I said yes that my stomach was a bit upset. I tried to eat a few more bites as I figured I was getting nausea due to taking my prenatals on an empty stomach.
Another bite in and I had to stop all together.
Me: "I may need you to pull over."
Hubby: "Really? Okay well just let me kn..."
Me: "I need you to pull over."
Pull over.
I got sick on the side of the road on the way to the park.
Our dog cried in the backseat because I had delayed his trip to park.
5 weeks, 4 days in. First case of morning sickness.
I can't be too bothered by it - it means that things are working and normal, right?
Three bites into the apple my stomach started to get a bit queasy. I stopped eating. Breathed deeply. Tried to continue. My husband (who thankfully was driving) asked if I was okay, and I said yes that my stomach was a bit upset. I tried to eat a few more bites as I figured I was getting nausea due to taking my prenatals on an empty stomach.
Another bite in and I had to stop all together.
Me: "I may need you to pull over."
Hubby: "Really? Okay well just let me kn..."
Me: "I need you to pull over."
Pull over.
I got sick on the side of the road on the way to the park.
Our dog cried in the backseat because I had delayed his trip to park.
5 weeks, 4 days in. First case of morning sickness.
I can't be too bothered by it - it means that things are working and normal, right?
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